Opportunity cost you think about.

 I ran into Heinz in the bus on the way to swimming pool who lives in Chi Fu.

I told him that 'cooking' is something I consider as a missed opportunity in my life.
In a way, it can be associated with your secret love that you sometimes ponder,,,
what would have happen if I had pursued her/him at that time

Right after graduating high school, I was working as a chef at the Coco's Family restaurant in Korea, I was too busy too enjoy adulthood at that time and Me working as a chef was merely a mean of supplying me with financial freedom nothing else. (I wonder this situation can be applied to a young men with his girl friend.  I guess only for those who does compartmentalisation )

I think about those time, what could have happened if I had taken a chef path as a career. (at that time I was not interested in college and graduating college was some kind of duty I have to complete to save my parents face...but maybe It turned out to be the best to have graduated so that I could go th US and completed Masters while building and learning about my mom)

anyway short conversatin with Heinz reminded me how important not to get distracted by all the fears this society creates to get your attention (If you noticed, fear is one of strong human emotions  for persuasion)

To be able to maintain balance of your soul, I believe in maintaining good physical and mental health. Also having meditation time as well as keeping a journal.

After all, life is a temporary gift given to us one time.
We better make the best out of it.
It's all yours! after your death, ,nothing will change, the word will keep on going(It should keep on going.)
Thus when you are alive, Be creative, Be bold, courageous to take a full ownership of it. (I always have much admiration for those who have led such a bold life such as artist. Tamara de Lempicka.

 I found myself filed up with fear of unknown(like death), doubts of my ability, shames caused by mistakes & errors when I try to attempt new things in my life.

Be free from all the fear of the world and ourselves.

Also beside, being free of fear, I got to be disciplined to be able to focus on little tasks that will get me to reach my goal.