Opportunity cost you think about.

 I ran into Heinz in the bus on the way to swimming pool who lives in Chi Fu.

I told him that 'cooking' is something I consider as a missed opportunity in my life.
In a way, it can be associated with your secret love that you sometimes ponder,,,
what would have happen if I had pursued her/him at that time

Right after graduating high school, I was working as a chef at the Coco's Family restaurant in Korea, I was too busy too enjoy adulthood at that time and Me working as a chef was merely a mean of supplying me with financial freedom nothing else. (I wonder this situation can be applied to a young men with his girl friend.  I guess only for those who does compartmentalisation )

I think about those time, what could have happened if I had taken a chef path as a career. (at that time I was not interested in college and graduating college was some kind of duty I have to complete to save my parents face...but maybe It turned out to be the best to have graduated so that I could go th US and completed Masters while building and learning about my mom)

anyway short conversatin with Heinz reminded me how important not to get distracted by all the fears this society creates to get your attention (If you noticed, fear is one of strong human emotions  for persuasion)

To be able to maintain balance of your soul, I believe in maintaining good physical and mental health. Also having meditation time as well as keeping a journal.

After all, life is a temporary gift given to us one time.
We better make the best out of it.
It's all yours! after your death, ,nothing will change, the word will keep on going(It should keep on going.)
Thus when you are alive, Be creative, Be bold, courageous to take a full ownership of it. (I always have much admiration for those who have led such a bold life such as artist. Tamara de Lempicka.

 I found myself filed up with fear of unknown(like death), doubts of my ability, shames caused by mistakes & errors when I try to attempt new things in my life.

Be free from all the fear of the world and ourselves.

Also beside, being free of fear, I got to be disciplined to be able to focus on little tasks that will get me to reach my goal.

I want to be rich

I was waiting for Anthony(my first private client by Apefit) on his balcony offering horizontal view of Stanely beach & Lamma island holding a foamy cappuccino with cinnamon powder on top offered by one of his helpers.

It strikes me as "It's so good to be rich".

I want to be 'rich' not because I like to indulge in vanity but because I'd like to increase the quality of my life for myself, my friends, and my family.

Money is a mean like oil paints are a mean for a painter. Imagine how horrible it would be for a painter not having enough money to purchase/get oil colours, papers, brushes and etc. Painters are born to express it on 2-dimentional form creating art/beauty to touch other soul's heart.

Just like the caring gift(flowers & food baskets) sent to me by my friends to console the death of baby at 7months 3days, I would like to have enough mean to express my carings to my friends, myself, and my family.

It's the first time I was feeling the financial restriction processing the first home purchase in Paris with my husband, and preparing for the delivery of our first son. (hiring full time helper, other on-going basic expense required for rearing children)
 
I think It's first time I heard me saying that  "I want to be successful and be rich" from the heart.

I have resources, power, motivation, patience, perseverance to achieve whatever I want in my life.
If somebody like me in her early 20's achieved this far, I can achieve whatever I want in my life.

After all, life is also fragile and we are living the world nobody can predict 1 second after.
Which, in fact, is another source of motivation of paying an attention to mould/develop yourself to achieve whatever goal you set aside in limited time we have here.

Basically the time is the main resources we have. Do not waste the irrevocable resources. use it to truly to be yourself(achieving small or big goals you set for yourself. be inspirational to yourself, to your friends, and your family).

I believe in that money is like air/ocean available to all of us, I will need to find a way to make flow into me.

I can do this and I will do that.
I have achieved whatever I have set aside since mid-20's.

To Do list: take photos of Antony's balcony and post it here.

July 2nd, 2015