July 17, 2013
How human can shape who we want to become (motorcycle exam – 2nd
attempt)
I bottomed up water inside the green translucent Columbia 350ml bottle that I prepared sitting in a small room
which appear size of 500cm x 300cm(Horizontal x vertical.)
Thinking about how interesting it is to observe how human’s(my)body
and emotion works under the ‘Stress’ in this specific case the stress equates ‘the
desire to pass 1st part of motocycle driving exam which is consisted
of mainly smooth stopping, changing gear, driving straight and curved road, and
emergency stop.
Last time I was consciously pumping loads of positive &
confidence energy imagining the happiness I would definitely feel after passing
the exam. I brought my bright orange new helmet and fancy bike gloves that will
be good suit for the winner of first exam.
While I was busy with keep on pumping into the positive air
in my chest and head, I overlooked how nervous I was. I was the last one out of
5 to take the driving exam at that time. I was too nervous and had hard time to
demonstrate the basic driving skill I had no problem before such as turning
left and right on curved line. I ended up dropping several dull orange corns
that stand on the line of Test Course.(Students are not supposed to drop them
during the test) Eventually I dropped my
bike and my hands were slippery with nervous sweat.
That was March 2013, sad story of my experience with 1st motorcycle
driving exam.
Four months forward (Yes it takes 3-4 months to reschedule this
simple exam and I have been on and off for 1year half working on this motorcycle
exam), it’s 17th of July, the 2nd exam date.
This morning, learning from past, I was well equipped with several
strategy to achieve my goal.
Strategy 1. focus Not
to pump into too much fake air/confidence in my head (in other words, do not
repeat the same mistake as I did on the first time) I did not bring my fancy
orange helmet or fancy bike gloves.
Strategy 2. instead Do focus on manage the pace of my breath
in a long & slow manner so that it can help calm down.
Strategy 3. accept that this (experiencing the obstinately chaotic
nervousness and naïve attempt/effort to managing it) as a positive stimulus which
eventually is good for me. It’s like tasteless vegetable/interval running
training which is quiet tough during the time but eventually it will help me
grow and make my life easy in long run.
Strategy 4. it’s a good case that I can practice what I digested/learned
from Mr Anthony Robbins’s belief.
He says that ‘what help shape who you are is Not what accidents/incidents/problems happened in your life but it is what actions you decide to take over them and what you decided to learn out of them.
He says that ‘what help shape who you are is Not what accidents/incidents/problems happened in your life but it is what actions you decide to take over them and what you decided to learn out of them.
With this 4 strategy, the story goes like this
During the test, when changing gear from 1st to 2nd,
the simple lifting up power with my left foot was too powerful than average human
that motorcycle engineers calculated/UATed thus designed, it lifted directly to
3rd from gear 1. Like suspense drama or the destiny of a main character
of Greek tragedy drama, the reflection from strong sunshine successfully prevented
me from noticing that that the current gear level is 3.
When turning the curved side, speed is reduced under Gear 3,
and you know what’s happening next if you are motorcycle driver.
On the Gear 3, the bike is not supposed to be driven in a
slow speed. I do not know what happen but I am about to fall again on the left.
With consciously calmed state, I manage
to balance the heavy bike from falling the left side but bike stopped and my
right foot landed on the ground. In other words, this is end of happy ending.
I was told that I have 2 options now. 1) Resign the test
course immediately 2) continue to the exam for my pleasure/practice. I decided to finish rest of exam with smooth turning
on the left and right curved course and perfectly gentle stop without any
single attention from the exam judge.
It seemed I was quiet sad and a bit frustrated by undesired
result of 2nd motorcycle exam.
My eyes filling up with excessive moist, when spoke, my
voice was a bit trembling and felt burning sensation in a size of egg tart around
deep middle part of my chest for 10-20
min after the exam.
This offered another opportunity for me to practice managing
my reflective emotion by my will. After all this will help improve my poker
face for monthly poker night. (ha ha that’s funny..makes me giggle). In spite
of my emotional devastation, I managed to remember to extend the expiry date
for my class until Dec 2014 which means I must complete getting the license by
Dec 2014 and managed to take charge to produce an write up. J
Lesson learnt and practice today.
- You shape your life by making decision on how you will act/solve over any problems/issues.
